December 13, 2006

Look alike

I descend the stairs, freshly showered and ready for work. Your mother heads upstairs to finish getting ready herself and I lower myself to the floor to play with you and your sister. At this moment, Swee’Pea is busy pushing her toys around the room, oblivious to you and I.

You approach me as I puff my cheeks out – knowing you love it when I do this because you know you’re going to get a big raspberry kiss on your cheek. In fact you dive into my arms and I blow my kisses onto your cheek in rapid succession as you squeal in delight. I hold you tight for a second longer and release you.

Once again you and I lock eyes. We look at each other for what seems like an eternity. You tilt your head slightly and I focus on the beauty of your little face. I notice that your face is looking slimmer and your dark eyes contrast with your light complexion. I also notice something that I have not seen before. As I gaze at you, my little boy, for the very first time, I see me. My heart skips a beat and tears well up in my eyes as I see myself as a little boy. Photographs of me run through my head as I gaze at your perfect little face.

I am so moved because since you were born, it has been generally agreed upon that neither you, nor your sister, looked much like me. I accepted that as an insignificant fact that had nothing to do with how much I love you. And that is still true. But I love seeing me in you. You are my little man and I am your Daddy. I cannot tell you how much that means to me – how much YOU mean to me.

I am so proud, Monk, to be your Daddy. And the fact that you look like me is just icing on the cake.

8 Comments

  1. That was so sweet Matthew. But I have to say, I always thought he looked like you…while SweetPea looks like Andrea.

    Comment by Melissa — December 14, 2006 @ 11:36 am

  2. Dude don’t make me cry…crap I just read it again and now I gotta get some tissue…good post…very sweet.

    Comment by Bill — December 14, 2006 @ 12:42 pm

  3. OKAY! I am getting my shoes on now, WHO SAID TheMONK does not look like Matthew?

    Comment by Grandmother — December 14, 2006 @ 8:10 pm

  4. *choke* he’s your little man… great, I’m all vaklempt…talk amongst yourselves. *sniff*

    Comment by How About Two? — December 15, 2006 @ 8:27 am

  5. Oh man, when you look at one of them and see yourself it is amazing. It really is mind blowing.

    Comment by Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah — December 15, 2006 @ 9:53 am

  6. (I love it that Grandmother is going to come over there and take care of whoever said that TheMonk didn’t look like you. She is my kind of woman.)

    Comment by Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah — December 15, 2006 @ 9:54 am

  7. I’m with Grandmother….I always thought TheMONK looked like
    a cross between you and Ben as babies!

    Comment by Aunt Raina — December 15, 2006 @ 12:36 pm

  8. There is nothing like being a guy and having your little boy look like you. Mine looks exactly like me. Shy people often whisper about us when we’re together “he looks just like his daddy.” Others just walk right up to me and say “you can’t deny that boy!” Enjoy having a mini-you, it only gets more fun as they get older.

    Comment by Keith — December 17, 2006 @ 9:46 pm

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